I Should Of Hit The Bunny!!

Have you ever heard that saying that if someone hits a bunny rabbit with their car then they are pregnant? Well yesterday on my way home from work a bunny rabbit scurried across the road and I slammed on my breaks to avoid hitting it. As soon as I did I thought of that saying that someone (who I dont remember now) told me awhile back. I thought to myself "I shoulda hit the damn thing"...I'm totally just kidding! I totally break for animals! Today is 5 DPO, this 2 week wait is hell. I'm trying not to think about it but its sooooo hard. My plan is not to buy any pregnancy tests until I miss my period. I hope I miss, I hope I miss, I hope I miss! As in terms of symptoms I haven't felt anything (which most normal people probably dont) On Monday and Tuesday I felt menstrual crampy but I'm sure thats because I ovulated. I'm trying not to read into every little cramp, or twinge I get! Well heres to the next  9 days going by super fast!! Talk to you soon!

My Heart Is Just Melting!...And So Close To Valentine's Day!

Hello everyone!!! Today is February 13th, the day before Valentine's Day, and it is also cycle day 17 for me. When I woke up this morning I didn't know that this day would be so good. Yesterday my skin was really bumming me out. I was breaking out with 2 cystic acne bumps, one on my right cheek and another on the left side of my chin. I was thinking to myself how I would have to make myself a dermatology appointment tomorrow to get the little buggers taken care of with cortisone injections. For the past week are so I have been doing my usual routine...waking up, going to work, making sure I didn't drink a thing and around 10am going to the bathroom to check my ovulation for the day. This past week wasn't that great. I hadn't ovulated and my doctors appointment kinda blew. Well today was going to change that! When I woke up this morning I made my breakfast, took my prenatal vitamin and one of my Metformin pills. I made sure the only thing I drank was the bit of water I used to swallow my pills. I knew I was going to check for ovulation and I didn't want to dilute my urine. Around 11:45 am I went to the bathroom and collected my urine in a cup. I currently have 2 different types of ovulation strips. The first ones are my cheap-o ones I ordered off of Amazon.com and I also have some First Response ones. The First Response ones are a lot more expensive then the Amazon ones and I don't get as many of them. My plan was to use my cheap strips everyday and if I got what I thought was a positive reading then I would use my First Response ones to confirm it. Well as soon as I dipped my cheap strip in the urine I watched as the urine got absorbed up the strip. I could quickly see the result line darkening. I waited for about 5 minutes and this is what I saw....

I yelled out to Nick who was in the living room watching Tommy Boy, "I think I'm ovulating!!!!!!!!" Since I thought this was a definite positive I went ahead and dipped the First Response strip, and this is what I saw...

I know this picture isn't that great but the left line is the result line and the right one is the control line. My left line is actually a bit darker and thicker then the control line (I know you all may not be able to tell that by the picture, sorry) So obviously Nick and I BD and plan on trying again tonight, tomorrow morning and evening, and probably the next day after that just to make sure. Seeing that I am ovulating makes me so happy because I was so worried that I wouldn't and also because I did not take my Clomid this cycle, per my doctor's advice since I got that weird sporadic cycle last time. It feels good to know I can ovulate on my own as long as I take my Metformin like I should 3 times a day. This ovulation also explains the cystic acne issue I'm currently having, but knowing I am ovulating the cystic acne can bring it on! It defiantly makes it easier to deal with! Well I will talk to you soon! Here's to the 2 week wait!!

No Title For This One, Just "Blaaaahhhh"

Probably about once every two weeks I have a dream that I am pregnant, I wake up sooooo excited  and then I realize it was just a dream. This is what happend to me last night. I hate the feeling I get when I realize it's not real, its such a tease. Today I had a follow up with my gyn to discuss how Clomid was going, and since it isn't going I was considering canceling the appointment. But in the end I didnt cancel and I have just gotten home from it.  It was depressing and I wish Nick could have come with me but his boss isn't the nicest and he didn't want to ask for off early. Nothing really came from the appointment. The only thing I found out was if I don't get pregnant within 5 months I am just going to be referred to Shady Grove fertility. When the doctor told me that I could just feel tears well up in my eyes. I know it hasn't been 5 months yet and I need to stop being so dramatic but I hate knowing that this is it. Like that my doctor doesn't think theres anything else he can do for me after this. I never wanted to end up at a fertility specialist, I guess because I never wanted  to be infertile or considered infertile. I know stressing out about it is only going to make this worse. I definatley don't think I let it control my life but I do think about it a lot and thats only because I have to keep tabs on everything pretty much everyday. I have to make sure I take 3 metformin a day. I have to make sure I check for ovulation daily. When I have a cycle I have to make sure I take my clomid. So its hard not to think about it when I kinda have to think about it ya know? When I came home I was in depresso mode and I ate like 4 mini valentines day rice krispe treats...blllllahhhhhh..........anyways! Thats it for now. Talk to you all later.

The Overdue Update

Today is Tuesday, Feb. 2nd. I'm getting kind of bad at these whole update things but some stuff has been going on since I last posted and while I'm waiting for the hubbs to get home with dinner I've found time to finally post. So on Friday morning, which was Jan. 28th I woke up in the morning, took my shower, and was actually feeling great! I had lots of energy and was ready to start my day. Before I left for work I went to use the bathroom and noticed I was bleeding. Friday was supposed to be cycle day 19 for me. So when I noticed the bleeding I had a slight thought in my head which was "oh my god, could this be implantation bleeding?!" I got in my car to leave for work and within a few minutes I started having bad cramping on my left side. It actually was pretty painful and when I got to work I called my gyn. and left a message for him to call me back. When he did I explained to him what was going on and he told me I could be ovulating. Blood during ovulation? I had never heard of this but I guess you learn something new everyday. This could also explain the only one sided cramping I was experiencing. He also told me I could be post ovulation and I could possibly have a cyst that might have ruptured. He told me no matter which of those two things it could be it was fine and not to worry. On my lunch break I ran across the street to the Rite Aid and got an ovulation predictor kit (since I had left my strips at home) and took one of the tests when I got back to the office. When I did take the test it was a definate negative for ovulation. Later that evening I noticed my cramping was becoming more centralized and the bleeding was becoming more heavy. I thought to myself "WTF? another period?! On what was supposed to be cycle day 19??? I wasnt even getting a period every month and now Im getting one after 19 days after I already had one???" ughhhhhhhhhhhh how frustrating. Now, the issue at this point was I hadn't gotten my Clomid refilled and my pharmacy (which is in my office building and only open Monday thru Friday) was now closed. And if I am supposed to start taking it on day 3 of my cycle then I should have started it on Sunday. So I was pretty much SOL. But to be honest, I really didn't want to start my Clomid again anyway. I literally just stopped it not that long ago and the side effects I had the second cycle on it were much worse then the first cycle. So I went through the whole weekend with bad menstrual cramping and all the great stuff that comes along with aunt flow in town. On Monday I called my doctor again and he was in surgery for the day so he wouldn't be calling me back till today. When he did I told him what was up and he told me not to even bother with Clomid this cycle we will just try again if I get another cycle *meaning if I don't get pregnant this cycle* he told me to defiantly keep "practicing" this month =) So that's where I am now, I can't explain why I got a period so soon after the one before and he didn't explain it either so who knows, I'm assuming it was a mix of hormones and the Prometrium from before! So here's to cycle day 5! Talk to you soon!

WARNING: severe, depressing blog ahead

Well I thought to myself I should really do an update considering I have been super slacking in the blog department this week. Where to start, where to start...hmmmm, oh okay! So temping sucks ass, and I've stopped doing it. I'm an ovulation temping school drop out. My thermometer sucks, and even though it says it has last temp recall, it lied. The light on it as well only stays on for a few seconds so it makes it hard to read in my dark bedroom early in the morning. I also found when I was trying to temp I was not sleeping well through the night, I think I was worrying too much about it and I wasn't sleeping through the whole night. I kept waking up thinking I had over slept or I forgot to get my temp. It was a hot mess. Another thing to make this week even more enjoyable was my skin broke out horribly with nasty, huge, and sore cystic acne. I seriously had 4 of them all at the same time! My face hurt! So I had no choice but to call my dermatologist on Friday and go in for some acne injections. They inject your cystic acne with a steroid and it reduces the size of them right away! After I got them done my doctor asked me if I was having regular periods (I don't know what made him ask that, but...) I replied "no, actually, I have PCOS" and he asked me what I was taking for it, and I told him Metformin, but I was also trying to have a baby so I just finished Clomid not too long ago. He told me the Clomid was most likely what was making my skin break out so bad. How depressing, this medicine sucks! It makes me sad, mean, and it makes me break out. But whatever it takes, right? Another thing that made this week even better was that I ended up getting sick on Saturday. I felt completely fine on Friday night (thank goodness, because my husband and I were hosting a poker game at our house) but when I woke up on Saturday around 9 am I felt like I needed to sleep for like 10 more hours! I was soooo exhausted. I went downstairs and ate a bowl of cereal, and when my husband came down to watch tv with me I told him I think I need to go back to bed. Shortly there after I started having bad stomach cramps and body aches. It felt like I was getting the stomach virus. But I never once vomited or had the typical diarrhea that comes with the virus. My wonderful husband went and got me some Nyquil Cold and Flu and some yummy Popsicles. Thankfully my mom stopped by Saturday night to check on me and offered to do my laundry since I was pretty much bedridden for the entire day *moms are the best* The Nyquil knocked me out for a bit, but it ended my stomach cramping. When I woke up Sunday (today) I felt a bit dizzy, which I'm assuming is because all I did was lay down on Saturday and I hadn't really eaten anything. But thankfully tonight I am feeling back to normal. I don't know if I just had a bug, or if its a side effect from the clomid. I did read that other women experienced the same symptoms on clomid. Just for shits and giggles I did do a pregnancy test and it was a big fat negative. Well that's about it for now. I am really sorry this blog was a depresso and not much good stuff. This past week kinda sucked a big one, and I'm hoping for a good week upcoming. Plus, the hubb's 27th birthday is on Wednesday! Talk to you all soon!

Temping

I really hope I haven't messed this up! I am currently on cycle day 7 and I just bought a thermometer yesterday...and I forgot to get my temp this morning (oops) So I will religiously be starting tomorrow morning! Is that bad? should I have started temping on cycle day 1? I've been trying to research it and a lot of people actually say they don't temp during AF because it makes their temps all wacky. AF stopped for me on Friday, so I probably should have started temping then, but it took me longer to get out and get a thermometer. So I am defiantly gonna start temping tomorrow. I am new to this so I have been trying to read up on it, but I always thought when your temp went up that's when you ovulate, but apparently your temperature goes down and then spikes up. Your supposed to start having intercourse when your temp goes down, because once it goes up its too late! but then I read that not all women have a drop in their temp before it spikes! AHHHHHHHH!!!! this is very confusing.  Anyways! Today is also the last day of my clomid for this cycle. I am actually feeling a lot better this cycle on Clomid then last months, which is good! I haven't had any hot flashes, and haven't felt as depresso either. Alrighty, well I am off! I will be posting again just to let you know how temping goes. OPKing will also be starting tomorrow as well!

My Prometrium Gift Came!

Wow...Prometrium really works, and fast, a lot faster then I thought it would. Today I felt a little crampy but not too much, and one new thing I experienced was cramping higher up, like around my hip area on both sides? I've never really had that happen before, but when I went to the bathroom I noticed AF had arrived.  So this means my second round of Clomid will be starting in 3 days! I look forward to taking it so I get another chance  at pregnancy but am not looking forward to the sadness that comes a long with it. The Clomid really gives me the downs and the blues, even after I am done taking it, but I know if it works it will totally be worth it! Also, I plan on temping this cycle (and continuing the OPKs) but my thermometer went MIA so I will be purchasing a new one tomorrow. If anyone has any knowledge of the whole temping thing please feel free to leave me some comments and let me know, since this will be my first cycle doing it! Thanks a bunch!