Prometrium

So I wanted to do a quick update on whats been going on with the whole Clomid thing. Unfortunatley, Clomid did not work for me this cycle. Infact, I never even got a period. My doctor orignially told me if I didnt get a period within 35 days to call the office and he would call in a perscription for me to induce a period so I could try Clomid again, well thats what I had to do. I of course took a pregnancy test before starting this drug called "Prometrium" and it was negative. I took Prometrium twice a day for 5 days and tomorrow is my last day. I expect to get a period within 10 days of finishing, but we shall see! Just a quick update! I hope to blog again soon. My husband got his second semen analysis done and I have the results and am excited to post so you can see the difference between the first one and the second, now that he has been taking the Conception XR =)

A Guide to Better Skin

     I wanted to call this blog "A Guide to Great Skin" but I'm not even there myself yet so I very well couldn't call it that! This blog is going to be about products and at home remedies I swear by! Growing up my skin could get problematic but I was lucky enough not to have to deal with severe acne. At the age of 25 I found out I have PCOS. If you read back to my older posts you can see more about it, but I found out that acne is a side effect of PCOS. Since I am trying to have a baby I wanted to get use to using more "natural" products. In the past I have gone to the dermatologist and used almost everything over the counter. Some products worked okay, but a lot of them left me with dry, flaky, red, swollen, itchy skin. Especially ones with benzoyl peroxide. That's when I decided to start doing some research on more natural products.

     The first one I want to talk about is honey and cinnamon. I make a mixture of honey and cinnamon and I keep it in a container in my bathroom.  Honey has antibacterial and anti-inflammatory properties, and cinnamon has antimicrobial, antioxidant properties which can help in controlling acne. I use this mixture as a "spot treatment" for acne. After taking off my make up, washing my facing, and patting it dry with a towel I will apply this mixture to my acne. I like to sleep with this on my face but it does get pretty messy. If you sleep with this on your face I highly suggest laying an old towel over your pillow just in case you toss and turn in the night.

The second at home product I like to make is a facial scrub made of olive oil, sugar, and cinnamon. I add all three products into another storage container and keep this in my bathroom as well. Some people find it odd to wash your face with something that has oil in it. But olive oil is one of the most simple, pure, and gentle oils you can use. It adds smoothness to your skin and gives you a nice glow. The sugar is grainy is acts as an exfoliate. I prefer sugar over salt because I think its more gentle. And once again, cinnamon for controlling acne. Once I take off my make up I will gently scrub my face with this mixture and rinse it off with luke warm water, then pat dry. I only suggest using this scrub at night before you go to bed. Your face will seem oily, but trust me, when you wake up and take your shower your skin will feel so soft! Both of these products can be made at home for cheap!

Now, this product was turned on to me by my friend Tina. Its called "Yes to Carrots" The product on the left is an exfoliating cleanser made with carrots to nourish the skin and bamboo to exfoliate. The product on the right is the eye and face make up remover. Its made of carrot juice, pumpkin, sweet potato and dead sea mud. Both products say they are "Paraben Free." I didn't know what that meant so when I googled it, it states, "Parabens are chemicals that are used extensively as antimicrobial and fungicidal preservatives in cosmetic products, in pharmaceuticals, and in food and beverages."  I love these products because there all natural, they don't irritate my skin, and they feel really creamy. Not to mention the make up remover smells like carrot cake with vanilla icing! These products can be bought at Target, each one runs about $9.99. I also saw they came in different fruits, like blueberries and tomatoes. The blueberry one is for anti-aging, and I think the tomato one is more for refining pores but since I have a slight tomato allergy I didn't get that one. These are great products and I highly recommend them!

And last but not least. Treating cystic acne! AHHH the worst type of acne, well to me at least! and I get them ALL the time! Cystic acne usually appears as hard nodules underneath or on top of the skin. They hurt sooooo bad, rarely ever come to a head and last forever. Plus, if you mess with them they scar so bad. I usually get them around ovulation or period time. I'm a raging ball of hormones I tell ya! So this is what I do. I fill my sink with luke warm water and pour about 2 teaspoons of baking soda in the water. Baking soda kills acne causing bacteria. The Calamine lotion helps with the inflammation, so I just put this on as a spot treatment and sleep with it on.

    That's it guys! I hope you enjoyed this blog. If anyone tries these remedies comment me and let me know what works or doesn't work for you!! Bye

A Healthier, Happier, PCOS Me!

    Today is January 2nd, 2011! Happy New year everyone! So, I was inspired by Nicole (from QueenNicolesRevolution) to starting off this new year on the right foot. For many reasons I hated the year 2010. It was probably one of the worst years of my life. I struggled with the acceptance of many things and am slowly trying to move past them. I won't get into what made me so upset because that would be totally ruining the whole point of this blog, but I'm making a promise to myself that 2011 will be nothing like 2010. I have this weird thing about numbers, I usually hate odd numbers but for some reason I really have good feelings about 2011. In order to make this year better these are the things I want to do.

     First, I am going to start eating healthy. I am not going to go on a diet. The word diet to me means something that is more for the now and not the later. It is usually short lived and usually requires "cutting" things out. My goal isn't about loosing weight. I just hope that's something that comes along with the changes of what I put in my mouth and how much of it I put in. Because I want to get pregnant I know I need to loose weight, but right now the most important thing to me is just being healthy, not becoming a nutritional freak. I know what things are "bad" and what things are "good". I just need to allow more of the "good" things into my diet on an everyday basis and allow the "bad" things every once in awhile as a treat. That's another thing...I remember being a kid and going out to dinner was a wonderful, exciting treat. Today, going out to eat is an everyday way of life. I want to make going out to dinner exciting again! which means, not doing it every week.

     Secondly, I want to be more of a person who enjoys life and doesn't dwell on the negative things. Everyday we live on this earth is something to celebrate. We all have ups and downs but I think I need to remember more often that there is someone out there who has it off a lot worse then me. So I just want to not get caught up in negative, catty things and just live everyday to the best of my ability.

     The third thing, this would be doing more activities with my husband. Trying to have a baby has taken over our relationship and even though we can say we are both together at home a lot we really aren't spending the time together that I would like. He may be downstairs playing video games or watching tv and I may be upstairs doing my own thing. I defiantly want to do more date nights, even if its something small like watching a movie together. Our basement needs to be re done and now that the weather is getting cold, and we aren't doing a lot of outdoor activities, I look forward to us picking out paint colors together, painting together, and picking out new furniture for the basement.

     The fourth thing would be just being a beautiful me. I don't think anyone is always happy with their looks but being the best looking you for that time period, I think is really important. You might be overweight, but loosing the weight you want most likely is not going to happen for you over night. For me, I would love to be 40 pounds lighter. Until I do become 40 pounds lighter I want to be the most beautiful overweight person there is! That means, taking the time to get up in the morning, styling my hair, doing my make up and just making myself look more presentable, just taking pride in the way I look. Some people may think having nice clothes, or having nice looking hair or makeup on is vein, and you shouldn't be worried about those things because it's the inside that counts. I wish I could be more of a person who "didn't care" but I do, and looking nice on the outside makes me feel good on the inside, and that's what this resolution is all about. ME. Making myself happier, and that's at no one else's expense!

     Well, I think that's it. I wish you all luck with your new year's resolutions and hope you all blog about them. I think  its a fun way to share whats been going on and a year from now it would be interesting to see what changes have been made in your lives. Oh, one other thing...I am shy about my weight and would most likely never put on here how much I weigh until I actually lost all the weight I wanted to loose. But, starting tomorrow morning I am going to weigh myself to get my "starting" weight and then from that point forward weigh myself every Friday morning. I will be blogging more, updating you on weight loss/gain and any struggles, concerns, or exciting moments a long the way! Good luck everyone!

"I can see into your future"

Tonight I am home alone with my baby girl Goldie. The hubbs is out for a little bit, and when I am alone I get bored. I should never be alone because I start thinking too much. I started thinking about all this baby stuff and how I just wanna know answers! like why is this happening to me? Will I ever get pregnant? How long will it be until I get pregnant, if it's even gonna happen at all. So I decided to call a psychic! I know, I know, it was a probably a complete waste of money, but since I was a first time caller it only cost a dollar! and I was willing to waste that to hear what she had to tell me. When I called she asked me for my name and date of birth, she also asked me what I was interested in knowing. I somewhat laughed to myself because I find it funny psychics ask questions about you. I feel like saying "don't you know who I am? and what I'm calling for?" But all I said to her was I wanted to know more about family. She automatically jumped to children, telling me she saw 3 children in my future. She also told me the first two would be close in age. The first one would be a boy, the second a girl, and then the third one would also be a boy. When the psychic told me the first two would be close in age something came over me and made me feel that I'm going to have twins. She never told me I was going to have twins but it was almost how she described them. It's hard for me to explain, but it was like she was seperating the first two children from the third. It was odd, and I could be completley wrong (so could she) but it was just a feeling I got. She also said something else...she said, "we can't get into the medical side of all this, but have you seen a doctor yet for your issue" Now, once again, I know this could be complete BS, and this was really just for fun for me. I understand why she told me she couldn't get into the medical aspect of this, because there are people out there that would replace doctors with psychics if they could, and then when something didn't go right they would try to sue the psychic or something, so I completley understand that. She told me she saw me getting pregnant in the year 2011, but the month of June kept coming to her (that kinda bummed me cause I really dont wanna wait till June) The psychic told me the person I was with was my soul mate and the children I will have will be with him (phew! thank goodness right?) She also told me she saw we were having some problems. This blog is about me trying to have a baby, not the issues my husband and I are having. All I will say to that is every couple has their ups and downs, thats completly normal. It's not normal if you dont have issues every now and then. What truly matters is that you try to make things better, and you WANT to make things better. My husband and I have only been married a little over a year, add that with trying to have a baby (and that not going right) and your sure to have a bad day. Basically the psychic was right about my hubbs and I, but I will never get into it more then that. Sooooo anways. I'm not trying to take this reading I got seriously but she did make me feel better! and I fully intend on continuing trying to have a baby now. I also made the decision to start charting my daily temps to track ovulation once my period starts. I didn't want to but I think I'm just gonna give it a try and see what happens, I really don't like relying just on my ovulation sticks anymore, I feel like a need a little back up! 

Coming to terms...

Today is Sunday, December 26th. Tomorrow will be exactly 2 weeks since I got (what I thought was...) a positive ovulation reading. I took a pregnancy test today and I waited around to see if the test line came up. I didn't see anything and I was basically expecting that so I went along about my business and came back to it a little later. When I looked down I thought I saw what was a faint, faint, faint pink line but thought maybe it's just my eyes so I went into our other bathroom that has better lighting and called my husband upstairs to take a look. I showed it to him and he said he saw it too! I told him I would wait and take another test tomorrow morning. Well about 5 minutes later I thought to myself I could really push out some pee, so of course, I took a second test. I waited and I saw no 2nd line what so ever =( bummmerrrr....I need to come to terms with the fact that Clomid may not have worked for me this cycle, or maybe, its not necessarily me, maybe its the hubbs. He still hasn't gotten his 2nd semen analysis done but I think hes going to try sometime this upcoming week when he has a day off. If anything changes I will post, if not you may just hear back from me once the results of his analysis come in! Happy new year everyone!

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Today I'm about 8DPO...today at work I noticed slight on and off cramps, and feelings I can only simply describe as "twinges" on my right side around where my ovary would be. My skin is breaking out more and still no sore boobs. I keep squeezing them checking for soreness, but not yet. The past two nights I have been feeling quite emotional, cried on the way home from work yesterday and feel like doing it right now. I'm hoping this isn't PMS...

The 2 Week Wait...

It has offically been 1 week since I got what I thought was a positive ovulation test. To be honest, I'm not exactly sure if I ovulated that day, the day after, or the day after that. But, my husband and I truly did try our best to catch ovulation this cycle. I'm doing my best to not even think about pregnancy or taking a pregnancy test. I'm trying to hold off as long as I can to take one. I don't want to get my hopes up, and to be honest I'm not even really excited about it. I want it to happen but unfortunatly enough I think I kind of got it in my head it won't happen this cycle. I started breaking out last week around Thursday and it went into the weekend which kind of worried me cause whenever I break out like that it usually means ovulation for me, or my period is coming...so who knows. Usually about 7 to 8 days before my period my boobs start hurting too, and so far that hasn't happend yet either (I dont know if thats a bad thing or a good thing, cause they usually say a sign of pregnancy is tender breasts) So basically I'm just hanging out right now, just living my life as normally as I can trying to let the days pass cause I know the longer I can hold off taking a test the better it will be. I am going out on Wednesday evening to finish up some Christmas shopping so I will probably just buy a test then. I will probably take an early pregnancy test on Friday morning! Wish me luck!! and pray for me!