"I can see into your future"

Tonight I am home alone with my baby girl Goldie. The hubbs is out for a little bit, and when I am alone I get bored. I should never be alone because I start thinking too much. I started thinking about all this baby stuff and how I just wanna know answers! like why is this happening to me? Will I ever get pregnant? How long will it be until I get pregnant, if it's even gonna happen at all. So I decided to call a psychic! I know, I know, it was a probably a complete waste of money, but since I was a first time caller it only cost a dollar! and I was willing to waste that to hear what she had to tell me. When I called she asked me for my name and date of birth, she also asked me what I was interested in knowing. I somewhat laughed to myself because I find it funny psychics ask questions about you. I feel like saying "don't you know who I am? and what I'm calling for?" But all I said to her was I wanted to know more about family. She automatically jumped to children, telling me she saw 3 children in my future. She also told me the first two would be close in age. The first one would be a boy, the second a girl, and then the third one would also be a boy. When the psychic told me the first two would be close in age something came over me and made me feel that I'm going to have twins. She never told me I was going to have twins but it was almost how she described them. It's hard for me to explain, but it was like she was seperating the first two children from the third. It was odd, and I could be completley wrong (so could she) but it was just a feeling I got. She also said something else...she said, "we can't get into the medical side of all this, but have you seen a doctor yet for your issue" Now, once again, I know this could be complete BS, and this was really just for fun for me. I understand why she told me she couldn't get into the medical aspect of this, because there are people out there that would replace doctors with psychics if they could, and then when something didn't go right they would try to sue the psychic or something, so I completley understand that. She told me she saw me getting pregnant in the year 2011, but the month of June kept coming to her (that kinda bummed me cause I really dont wanna wait till June) The psychic told me the person I was with was my soul mate and the children I will have will be with him (phew! thank goodness right?) She also told me she saw we were having some problems. This blog is about me trying to have a baby, not the issues my husband and I are having. All I will say to that is every couple has their ups and downs, thats completly normal. It's not normal if you dont have issues every now and then. What truly matters is that you try to make things better, and you WANT to make things better. My husband and I have only been married a little over a year, add that with trying to have a baby (and that not going right) and your sure to have a bad day. Basically the psychic was right about my hubbs and I, but I will never get into it more then that. Sooooo anways. I'm not trying to take this reading I got seriously but she did make me feel better! and I fully intend on continuing trying to have a baby now. I also made the decision to start charting my daily temps to track ovulation once my period starts. I didn't want to but I think I'm just gonna give it a try and see what happens, I really don't like relying just on my ovulation sticks anymore, I feel like a need a little back up! 

Coming to terms...

Today is Sunday, December 26th. Tomorrow will be exactly 2 weeks since I got (what I thought was...) a positive ovulation reading. I took a pregnancy test today and I waited around to see if the test line came up. I didn't see anything and I was basically expecting that so I went along about my business and came back to it a little later. When I looked down I thought I saw what was a faint, faint, faint pink line but thought maybe it's just my eyes so I went into our other bathroom that has better lighting and called my husband upstairs to take a look. I showed it to him and he said he saw it too! I told him I would wait and take another test tomorrow morning. Well about 5 minutes later I thought to myself I could really push out some pee, so of course, I took a second test. I waited and I saw no 2nd line what so ever =( bummmerrrr....I need to come to terms with the fact that Clomid may not have worked for me this cycle, or maybe, its not necessarily me, maybe its the hubbs. He still hasn't gotten his 2nd semen analysis done but I think hes going to try sometime this upcoming week when he has a day off. If anything changes I will post, if not you may just hear back from me once the results of his analysis come in! Happy new year everyone!

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Today I'm about 8DPO...today at work I noticed slight on and off cramps, and feelings I can only simply describe as "twinges" on my right side around where my ovary would be. My skin is breaking out more and still no sore boobs. I keep squeezing them checking for soreness, but not yet. The past two nights I have been feeling quite emotional, cried on the way home from work yesterday and feel like doing it right now. I'm hoping this isn't PMS...

The 2 Week Wait...

It has offically been 1 week since I got what I thought was a positive ovulation test. To be honest, I'm not exactly sure if I ovulated that day, the day after, or the day after that. But, my husband and I truly did try our best to catch ovulation this cycle. I'm doing my best to not even think about pregnancy or taking a pregnancy test. I'm trying to hold off as long as I can to take one. I don't want to get my hopes up, and to be honest I'm not even really excited about it. I want it to happen but unfortunatly enough I think I kind of got it in my head it won't happen this cycle. I started breaking out last week around Thursday and it went into the weekend which kind of worried me cause whenever I break out like that it usually means ovulation for me, or my period is coming...so who knows. Usually about 7 to 8 days before my period my boobs start hurting too, and so far that hasn't happend yet either (I dont know if thats a bad thing or a good thing, cause they usually say a sign of pregnancy is tender breasts) So basically I'm just hanging out right now, just living my life as normally as I can trying to let the days pass cause I know the longer I can hold off taking a test the better it will be. I am going out on Wednesday evening to finish up some Christmas shopping so I will probably just buy a test then. I will probably take an early pregnancy test on Friday morning! Wish me luck!! and pray for me!

Super Excitment!!!

I have wonderful news! Finally! No, I'm not pregnant, not yet that is! But I have good feelings and I'm gonna stay positive! Since cycle day 10 I have been successfully BD with the hubbs every other day, if not every day! Which is great because the little buggers are constantly being shot up there with hopes a big ol' egg will be rolling on by so they can catch a ride! I'm also giving warning that my blogs are pretty personal. That's a choice I have made to share whats going on in my life right now. Some people may think talking about cervical mucus (CM) might be kind of gross but if you are grossed out by that kind of stuff you may not have ever tried to have a baby and if you are getting grossed out then this may not be the blog for you! (Just a heads up cause I will totally be talking about CM in this blog ;) So healthy, fertile loving CM is supposed to be clear, resembling raw egg white. Ovulation is at its peak when you can take your CM and stretch it between your middle finger and thumb. Last week when I was taking a lot of my OP strips the test line seemed dark to me as if I was ovulating but I noticed my CM was white and thick, like hand lotion. I knew that wasn't good CM for baby making but I BD anyway because the OPK line seemed dark. Well last night I noticed my CM seemed clear and wet feeling. I told my husband I thought I could be ovulating soon because of this and the fact I had been cramping on and off since Friday, so we BD last night. Today, I used another OP strip to see what it would look like and this is what came up...

Totally, without question, one big freakin' positive, darker then last weeks too! Which explains the cramping and the clear CM! So I'm super happy we tried last night and will continue to try tonight as well. I can't really explain the dark test lines from last weeks OPKs, but I have read that being on Clomid can effect the results of OPKs so who knows! Welp! That's it for now! I will talk to you all soon!

What's going on?

Well all I can say is I have no clue whats going on! I'm starting to question when I ovulated, or if I even ovulated at all. I thought I did last week but on Friday I experienced menstrual like cramps through the entire day, my ovulation strip was not positive and my CM was very white and creamy. Even though, my husband and I still BD that evening. Well on Saturday and Sunday I am STILL experiencing menstrual like cramps. I tried googling  it, some women say you can experience implantation cramps and others say theres no such thing. I dont know! But I guess only time will tell. Just wanted to give you all an update! Talk to you soon!

Cycle Day 14 Ovulation Strip

Well, here it is...Cycle day 14 ovulation test strip. When I first saw it I thought it looked the same as yesterdays but now that I see it like this I do think it looks a bit lighter then yesterdays. Tell me what you think!

Cycle Day 13 Ovulation Strip

So I know I've strayed away from the blogs recently but it was just because I didn't feel like posting basically the same stuff, which was that I wasn't ovulating. Today is cycled day 13 and I was told by my doctor ovulation should occur between cycle day 10 and 14. My last cycle was 29 days which meant I had ovulated on cycle day 15 so I didn't think I would ovulate as early as day 10. Well today I took another ovulation test and this is what came up!

Yes, I know the left line isn't quite as dark as the right one but I've seen what a "positive" ovulation strip is and this is basically it. I'm going to take another one tomorrow to see if the line gets any darker. Even though I didn't think I ovulated days prior, the hubby and I still BD anyways to make sure we wouldn't miss it! The days we tried were Saturday, Monday, and today...and possibly again later tonight! (hahaha) and most likely tomorrow! I also jinxed myself earlier today as well. I was telling a friend how usually when I ovulate I break out and so far I hadn't had a break out, I assumed it was possibly from the hormones of the clomid. But when I got home today I did notice a couple spots on the face that were breaking out =( I also have noticed a few feelings on both sides where my ovaries are like "twinges" and every so often I feel like a menstrual crampy feelingy thing. Who knows? I will defiantly post tomorrows ovulation strip to see if anything changes!

Bye!

Cycle Day 9

So today is cycle day 9, I am really tired and am not in the mood to post the picture of my ovulation strip from this morning. The line was actually lighter today then it was yesterday, so I will just try again tomorrow. Dr. S told me I should hopefully ovulate between cycle day 10 and 14. I honestly don't think I will ovulate as early as day 10 but the hubby and I will continue BD tomorrow and every day after that so we make sure we get it right! We actually started BD on Wednesday =) I know, TMI! But I do not want to basically waste this Clomid cycle by missing my ovulation day. One other thing, I finished the Clomid on Tuesday evening and it is now Friday. I thought if I was going to experience a lot as in terms of symptoms I would have felt them while I was actually taking Clomid but I was totally wrong! I have been miserable the past two days. Extremley tired all day long, upset in the mornings and evenings (sad and wanting to cry for no reason), annoyed easily, and hot all day long. I hate feeling this way but I know it will be worth it in the end. I've been trying to behave myself because you don't even know how badly I want to start fights with my husband when I start feeling annoyed but I hold back and just go be a depresso in my room! I will get through this! Talk to you tomorrow!!

PS:
 BD = Baby Dancing

Cycle Day 8 Ovulation Strip

This is today's ovulation strip for cycle day 8, taken around 11 am with nothing to drink prior. I know it doesn't look like it from the photo but it is a slight bit darker then yesterdays. So hopefully I am one day closer to ovulation!

Cycle Day 7 Ovulation Strip

This is my ovulation strip I did right around 10 am. I hadn't drank anything before taking this test. The left line is supposed to be just as dark as the right one if my body was producing the LH hormone (the hormone you produce when you ovulate).....not yet!!